No Direction

Happy to quit what I'm doing..
Because I've not being doing much and the little I do is not what I want to do.

Now what am I to do?

Follow my passion?
But that is an arduous, unpredictable and a risky path that is going to leave me penniless for a few months, causing troubles for me and my people!
What if I loose the battle??!!

Get into the same garbage decorated in a new gift wrapper?
Oh my GOD, the same old cribs coming up - no passion, not my cuppa tea, not challenging..

Another big question coming up these days - Can I even get the old garbage back? Is it really that easy?

Being jobless, not just pains but makes you go cranky as well - True; true - An idle mind is a Devil's workshop!
But I need to make up my mind!! I need answers and I need to find something in this puddle!

Thou shall not expect

It's expectations that makes one go weak on the knees.
Learning not to expect much, be it from life or relationships;
An art that is though way too difficult to master,
Will make ones happiness truly independent!

Change

One step at a time, as I grow;
So many changes, So much learning;
Each phase of life - the gained the lost;
Yet another change - A big, big one !
As I'm bracing myself for the whirlwind to come,
I realise that things are never going to be the same.
No more protective coziness my home,
Away from the unmatchable parental love - A heart wrenching distance,
A change in "I do whatever I want" attitude,
Can no longer say - No liabilities,
New relationships, New responsibilities;
Can I ?- Am I that grown up?
More questions and no answers - but one thing is written;
Things are never going to be the same - for the good or bad, lies with me!