Oops I can't find myself!!

A year bidding a farewell, a new one to come, festive moods everywhere...but nothing is sinking in. I seem to have lost myself somewhere. Helplessly I search for me!
In what I do - No! That's not me!
In what I speak - No, That's just my lips, Not me!
In what I think - No, Again. Here it is complete blankness!

There seems to be a big, black blanket between me and my own self.. I try to pull it away desperately wanting the familiar light to shine, to get see myself again. Oh but wait, its not a blanket, but it seems like an deep, deep abyss!

And I have no reason to have lost the zest! Things are absolutely fine, as expected!
I just want my song, my light, my life back!

This blog is one such of my numerous efforts to find my own self.
Oh God can I see the rays??
Please let be it!